Posts tagged: words
just a reminder to myself.
goddammit why cant i help myself around you
why is it that i just cant find it in myself to go on with life like the rest of the world?
ugh. i disappoint myself.
…and while the rest of the world is too busy falling in love, here I am, comfortably tucked in the confines of my house, playing modern warfare 3 on my xbox. Yes, I am cool with that since my witty, humorous yet intellectual girlfriend doesn’t exist.
On the way to Ayala earlier, I took a bus in Buendia. I was sitting comfortably in my spot while watching some random Ryan Reynolds comedy movie. A woman sat beside me, she was tall, pretty, had long brown hair and glasses, she looked 20-ish but looked like she was of the working class already. Her fragrance was just divine. I could go on describing her but I don’t feel the need to. Anyway, we were laughing like hell on our seats watching the movie, then by chance our eyes met; I thought to myself that I should say something.
“What’s this film called”? I asked her with a smile.
“Oh, it’s The Change-Up, you haven’t seen it?” she replied.
From there on, we had a short but nice conversation that had a nice flow to it. Apparently she’s into movies, especially those of the romantic comedy genre. She was getting off at Paseo De Roxas, so she had to cut it short as we were nearing the bus stop. I wanted to talk to her for a bit more, I decided I should ask her number and her name; in my head I was thinking that what would the chances be of a random stranger giving her number to someone she barely knows? I got out of my comfort zone and asked for it anyway, albeit in a slightly hesitant manner. She gave it of course, along with her name, Kat. I said maybe we’d hang out somewhere, maybe have some coffee. She replied with “I’d like that”.
Lately I’ve been working to be a more sociable person, I’ve been too much of an introvert already. I didn’t think socializing would actually be this fun; sorry if I sound kind of mababaw. Turns out that it’s only when we get out of our comfort zones do we truly experience life. Who knows? Maybe the person you’ve been looking for all your life might be the one sitting next to you in the bus.
I ask myself these questions:
what do you have to lose?
what’s the worst that can happen?
of those whom I all loved, the one I loved the most was the one I could not get.
I miss the old pasta they used to serve at my high school canteen. They had lots to choose from, it was hella cheap too - for P50 you would get a generous serving of pasta and garlic bread (from French Baker, no less). They served this one pasta dish, I don’t know what it was called but the nice old lady who cooked it called it ‘Sun-kissed pasta’. Its sauce was orange colored oil, had lots of bacon, garlic, and green onion. The sauce was tangy and a bit salty, it was not greasy and didn’t leave the aftertaste of overused oil. This was one of the reasons why I’d always be excited to go to school back then. I ate there every fucking day in high school. I’m kinda craving for it now, sadly, I don’t think there’s a recipe for it online (anyone familiar with the recipe? for the sauce at least, it’d be awesome and I will love you forever).
One day I heard news from a friend who is still in HS that they shut them down for unknown reasons. I was like, “WHY THE FUCK WOULD THEY DO THAT?” as I raged. Apparently, the only food they serve there now was shitty, generic Zaide canteen fare (contracted by La Salle schools), which they often boycotted.
Good, cheap food is hard to come by these days, especially around the university campus. There are lots to choose from, albeit being expensive, and that automatically removes itself as a choice for me since I’m living on a really tight budget. Nothing quite satisfies me more than the aforementioned pasta place. Why must restaurant/food establishment owners, cafeteria contractors, etc. take advantage of the false notion that most DLSU students have stuffed wallets? We have it as bad as them and we’re not even working yet, but they continue to milk us of even just the small amount of money we’re forced to live on each day.
*Sigh* I guess I’ll just shut up and eat pancit canton at Agno… /cheapassmode
I don’t get the gripe with Seth Macfarlane. I think he is a funny, witty and creative man, and if anything, he should be acclaimed for this style of comedy. There is nothing he couldn’t come up with a satirization of (except 4chan maybe) and be funny. He is one of the noblest men ever for putting himself on the line for the sake of comedy. He gives self-righteous critics, who think that he is what wrong with the world, someone to laugh and mock at, making them feel better about themselves when in actuality, it’s them that’s wrong with the world.
tl;dr i love family guy
My idea of fun is not that of a normal person’s.
It kinda sucks wanting to buy new shit to update my arsenal of unnecessary accessories but not being able to afford them being a destitute and starving college student living on only P200 a day. I don’t even eat properly anymore and I still have a hard time saving up for shit. I should get a job or something. Why must the world revolve around capitalism so much? I mean, we study our asses off to get jobs to pay for shit we don’t really need but want so bad… well I guess the question should be more like why must humans desire useless material possessions so much (but what the REAL question should really be is why do all these goddamn companies make so much good shit!).
Why must the world be like this it’s driving me fucking crazy ugh I want to kill myself over being poor (nah not rly). Just goes to show how I wouldn’t survive being on a lower class (middle class is bad enough here in the Philippines). I hate having fucking stingy parents ugh (despite them paying my uber-expensive tuition in school), but it also makes me feel kinda bad being 2 years delayed from graduating so yeah I guess I don’t deserve having to want these things. /guilty
tl;dr I’m poor and in a need of a job.
