“I don’t think that I’ve been in love as such, Although I liked a few folk pretty well. Love must be vaster than my smiles or touch, For brave men died and empires rose and fell For love: girls followed boys to foreign lands And men have followed women into Hell.
In plays and poems someone understands There’s something makes us more than blood and bone And more than biological demands… For me, love’s like the wind, unseen, unknown. I see the trees are bending where it’s been, I know that it leaves wreckage where it’s blown. I really don’t know what ‘I love you’ means. I think it means ‘Don’t leave me here alone.’”—
It kinda sucks wanting to buy new shit to update my arsenal of unnecessary accessories but not being able to afford them being a destitute and starving college student living on only P200 a day. I don’t even eat properly anymore and I still have a hard time saving up for shit. I should get a job or something. Why must the world revolve around capitalism so much? I mean, we study our asses off to get jobs to pay for shit we don’t really need but want so bad… well I guess the question should be more like why must humans desire useless material possessions so much (but what the REAL question should really be is why do all these goddamn companies make so much good shit!).
Why must the world be like this it’s driving me fucking crazy ugh I want to kill myself over being poor (nah not rly). Just goes to show how I wouldn’t survive being on a lower class (middle class is bad enough here in the Philippines). I hate having fucking stingy parents ugh (despite them paying my uber-expensive tuition in school), but it also makes me feel kinda bad being 2 years delayed from graduating so yeah I guess I don’t deserve having to want these things. /guilty
Moving on has a sort of a refreshing and liberating feeling to it, kinda like the feeling of growing up, being stronger and being reborn anew. I like it. Just now I realized that in life you can’t just be stuck in a rut but rather you should take risks and gain new experiences.